Sunday, January 30, 2011

Is this all I was

Is that all I was

Was I just the guy you flirted with and did stuff with while you were single. Was I the person that as long as the words “I have a girlfriend” never left my lips you knew I was your puppet. Are you that low that you are blaming me for you insecurities and problems. Are you ever gonna take the time to read this and catch that any of it is about you.
Well I don’t care what you think when you read this. I don’t care how sorry you are or how much you think one more chance will be all you need. I am done. I am not your fall back to use when ever you are in a relationship that isn’t steady. I am not the person you beat up on when you have had a shitty day and can’t maturely get your emotions out. I am done beating this dead horse that was are attempt at a friendship. The only that I really like about you anymore is that you make it easy to be a good writer because you are so used to living your life with a plot or drama you have no idea YOU are the reason that YOU are alone and that YOU are the reason that when guys scratch your surface and see what is underneath they realize you are not what they thought you were.
I don’t hate you. I am not grateful for the part you played in my life, and for the first time I regret that I cared about you enough to give you my virginity I am nothing to you for you are nothing. You a symbiont and you live your life off of others because YOU know that one day YOU will be alone and YOU will starve and die because the host you have leeching off of is gone and is no longer giving you the affection and attention that you need to thrive. You are nothing and that is all you will ever be, and I hope that someday you will see this and when you do I hope you fall hard and no one catches you so that you get a taste of real life.


So last night was awesome. My friend Chris had a scary game night at his where we had someone play Dead Space 2 and we watched with all the lights off. Well it was cool the game didn't scare me to much, but that is probably just because I wasn't playing it lol. The only sad part is that Chris was sick most of the day so he couldn't make it down to chill. He came down for a little bit later on in the night, but for the most part we asked him to rest.
The only sad part is now I sit in Chris's room as he cuddles with my friend/ex girlfriend. I don't mind it because we are both over the past it just sucks that I don't have that. I don't have the person to cuddle with everyday and see most days. I can't take care of/ be taken care of by the person that I love because they are in another city. I love my girlfriend and I am making this distance work because I know it will not be forever. Just miss the days the closeness that I am seeing expressed between my two friends right now. I know that I sound very depressive and I apologize to anyone actually reading this. I just had something on my mind that I needed to get out. I know it is cheesy, but when it comes to needing to vent or getting this out the saying from the movie Shrek, "Better out than in." is a very good one because holding in your problems doesn't solve anything, but getting them out can help you figure somethings out.

Josh Tree

Friday, January 28, 2011

Check em out

Hey everyone in the detroit area should come check out my friends band at the Modern Exchange. It's gonna be awesome. Assasins, Call It Karma, Sycamore and The This We Carry <-(friends band) are gonna be there. It's just 8 bucks at the door.

Josh Tree

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Random Movie Genre

I think that this movie is way better than the Hollywood Repo men adaptation. It's rock opera, but still it is the shit.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Random Movie Quote

“VoilĂ ! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition! The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it’s my very good honour to meet you and you may call me V.”
— V

Thursday, January 20, 2011

This could be good...

So I talked to my friend Ashlyn last night. She's an ex of mine and we have had a very rough history. So anyway I was talking to her and I actually had a conversation with her. We didn't fight or get angry or yell we just talked about stuff. Now we have fought and made up and fought and made up and I hope for both are sakes that we are both mature enough to not do that anymore. I am hopeful. I am not going to lie I haven't said very many nice things about her lately and part of me is sad about that because I don't like being mean to anyone. Even people I really hate make me sad when I am mean to them. I am not gonna try and convince my friends that things are different with her because I don't even know yet. I just wanna be friends this time with her, and she knows that which makes me happy because we never really were friends before we dated and maybe this time we can actually be friends and see if we can be friends. I know my friends aren't gonna be happy but I can't help, but give out second chances and thirds and sometimes fourths, but I can honestly say that is the last chance I am giving a friendship between us. I hope that we can be friends and that she has changed because I would love to have a friend back. I just hope that my friends don't give me shit for this. I know I deserve it after everything that has happened between us, but I just wanna see actually see if I can just be friends with her.

Josh Tree

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Kinda a boring day

A rather boring day. Just kinda sat around and listen to the band I mentioned before trying to learn their stuff. Got all but one down for the most part. Other than that though just sat around applying at place and waiting for class.

Josh Tree

Friday, January 14, 2011


So I put an ad on craigslist looking for a band and I got a few back. I got a pop/punk band that I am Auditioning for called Ready Set Reset that is pretty good and I got a Rock/Metal band I might get to do too, and I have a crazy guitarist that was looking for someone to bounce ideas off of so I can jam with him to. All I can say is I love craigslist.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Psych and Math

So I had Psych yesterday and I have to say that my Psych teacher is fucking insane and it's awesome, and I can say that for once I have two teacher that I like cause my math teacher is the shit too.

Josh Tree

Monday, January 10, 2011

More School

So I start school Tuesday Psychology class and then Algebra Wednesday. I can't wait. I get my refund for my loans at the end of the month and I can get clothes finally.

Friday, January 7, 2011

School stuff done

So yeah I finally figured out that the money I thought was taking forever to get to me and has just been sitting at the school since November. *face palm* I felt like a genius, but anyway so yesterday I finally got my books and my t-89plus and my laptop so I am happy. School starts Tuesday and I am prepared.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Check em out

Hey guys I wanted to take this blog to tell you guys to check out this local band I like, they are good guys and they are good musicians. (They are post-hardcore/screamo)


Josh Tree